Grab a cup of coffee and sit a spell. I'm gonna start this novel off with a big group hug.
Most of you know my mother in law died in Feb. after almost 20 days in ICU because of the flu. It was the most difficult, devastating thing we have ever experienced. She was a rock to our family. I mean, Jesus is the rock, but she was like his right hand woman.
However, there is more that has happened within our family this past year which has made everything so much more difficult.
I read a quote on pinterest that said, "Grief is like the ocean; it comes in waves, ebbing and flowing. Sometimes the water is calm, and sometimes it is overwhelming. All we can do is learn how to swim."
and I thought...this is so very true, but we aren't even swimming. We are still treading water. I've never experienced a loss like this, so I'm not sure when you stop trying to just keep your head above water and actually move toward the shore.
I felt something had to give and since I have nothing left, it had to be SC. Sometimes it sucks being grown up about things :) I started homeschooling full time this year because I thought.. let's make things as crazy as possible (I'm kidding. kinda.) So extra scrap time is zero. I feel distracted and at the same time, obligated to be more available for my family because of all we have went through and are still going through. And then there are the holidays, which bring their own new set of waters to try and navigate.
So I made the tough choice to not reapply to the CT.
I Love SC. Capital L. The people that make up Studio Calico...not only the employees and creative team, but the community members as well, are some of the best people you will ever meet. (Or not meet as the case maybe.) If you love getting crafty and playing with paper and aren't a part of that community, you are missing out. Go join. I plan to still scrap now and then and of course remain a subscriber. Because man, I love me some Studio Calico.